LTBG: 18/09/2011 - 25/09/2011

Friday 23 September 2011

So,now I am trying to calm.I was on our Swan Lake.I did felt all the Beauty you brought into my life.I am so sorry,so deeply sorry for hurting you.You do know that I did hurt my own very self.Your Heart are in mine even if I sometimes because outside pain do not see it.

I have nothing more to say then I shell try not to forget that you are different from anyone I knew.

Those past days was hard to bear.I didn't have a minute to rest.Whole night I was having nightmares.Maybe I am too sensitive but I can't change that,neither not sure would I like to change that.I used to be so proud to be different,no,I am still proud even when I am hurt by others.I do know that real Love always take some actions by those who see and try to ruin her.Maybe I was to blame for x act,maybe I should of lied about finding someone who do care and love me more then she can imagine.But my love,I am too old for start to hide and I was to proud to have you in my life.No,never I spoke the name,your beautiful name is too secret,to holly to be spoken in front of people.How much I adore you.

I can almost feel psychical pain for hurting you.You do know how precious you are to me.

Since few days like I came into special Land which you made for us.I loved you so for that.I could never go in my dreams so far to aloud call you:my wife.

I was deeply honoured.I believe that everything is possible for us from that moment on.

When someone out of nowhere,but heart has always very good reasons,said that;then your life is transformed in some special way.It does not belong to Earth anymore,it belongs to Heaven.So,in there only Love and joy exists.

My love,my beautiful one,

you are as much idealist and romantic as I am.We are the two half's of one Heart.We are writers and poets,dancer and pianist,painter and journalist,philosophers and critic,helpers and beautiful souls.When I stop,you continue and opposite.That is magic of Love,with capital L.

We decided to live in timeless moment,in place with no boundaries,in moment and place we call our Love.

I will always be your best friend knowing that you are mine.

I will always be your colleague knowing that you are mine.

I will always be proud of our Love knowing that You are proud.

You are twenty one years old but you have ancient soul and wisdom of Light so we belong to each other.

I am fifty two years old but my heart is young as yours so I belong to your heart.

Love do not see years.How much I tryed to stop myself of falling into you it was impossible.

I do feel that we are born to be each others half.

Sharing dreams with you means we able to dance with you on our meadow,to watch sunset and rainbows over the Roman aquaduct duct,to see your preforming to be able to admire you more.

I do know what world is.And what would people things about our relationship.But my love,I do not look at us and ours feeling by theirs eyes:to me Love someone means to love her heart,her soul,her mind,her beliefs,her dreams.You did once exquisitely said that love means looking in the same direction.

I know that our conversation are the most brilliant conversations I have ever had.I love to talk to you.You do understand everything.i can talk with you about anything.I admire your mind,so calm and brilliant,I am trying to for fill my own knowledge with your thoughts.i love your quotes and I love to use them,I am so proud of you.I was always been.I did never hide it.

Eternally your

sparrow

ps.was it so long ago,really?

Send Her my Love

Please,do send Her my Love!

To You

Your pain causes me to suffer with You.
Words are caught in my throat
as they are not any left to say.
I feel in my/Our Heart
all Your frustrations,hurts and loneliness.
Remember my Love,
You are never alone.
I am always here
when ever You need me.

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Tuesday 20 September 2011

I am Sorry

I do not know how to bring back the time.I am lost.I do not want that ever.It is time to bring back the time ot to change everything in this life.
Good night my little one!
I do miss You.

My Beloved Son

My most beloved son,
There is almost whole month that You moved in better world,in nicer and brighter one.I am here left to go on without Your presence.
No one really want to talk about that,people do whisper behind my back I can feel there thoughts.They do not really understand anything at all.
Who on earth can see pain inside my heart?I even do not know why am I in such pain..Is it regrets?Am I sorry for leaving You?Am I tired of all living beings?
I do not know my little one.
We used to feel each other feelings without being close..but I am now so wrong because we were always closer then any I used to know.You were always my angel.You always knew just to love.
There was one special soul who told me that You do live just in another shape..I do believe her.I do believe that You are alive somewhere in timeless space.
My little angel,I do miss You so much that every time when I look in the sky I feel You..I am talking in my heart with You.Now there is noone besides me,do You know why?I do not know anything anymore.Just month ago I was the most happiest woman in the world.I did never thought that is going to change,ever.But it happened.You passed away.I am so tired my love,just tired.